well hello morning... its been awhile!

Well today has been nothing to special.

Worked. Tanned.

Blogged.

This is how I feel about my relationship.

2moro however.. I will have to be at the gym at 7 in the morning.

All the coffee in Columbia will never make me a morning person!! I'm sure I will hate life.

But if you really want something you push yourself. I want it!



GET IT!

I LOVE to workout!

this is my motivation!

I had a great workout today, feel the burn! haha

Get it. Get it. GET IT!!!

the simple things in life...

I was very tired when I woke up today.

Worked all day then went to the bf's saw him for about an hr before he went to work.

then. nap. time.

got up did some laundry

He is almost off and we plan on cuddling up and watchin some movies.

I picked up the 4th season of nip tuck where we left off.

I'm pretty excited about it.

I have had some time to kill before he gets here so here are a few things I want. :)

I'm so doing this in my next place. I love it!

I love this.

I have been looking for a blazer jacket. 

This is perfect! I would love to welcome it to my closet!

No I don't plan on being married anytime soon! haha

I have a ton of friends that are engaged this year so I have been wedding dress shopping with a few.

everyone is has a different style but this is pretty much exactly what I want.

A girl can look eh?

On another note.

I really want my own apartment. 

My own spot. Plus I have a ton of decorating ideas.

awww someday.....

well, well, wellll....

October was less then wonderful.

I did go to Vegas.

It was fun. I am glad its over with tho.

Over all however,

Nothing seemed to go my way.

I went from liking my new job to not being able to stand it.

My relationship has been an emotional chaotic mess. Yah, I'm still in it. Don't ask.

Needless to say I am over October one of my favorite months and HOPE November is better!

I am working out regularily thats a positive.

I got a new job and am training this week.

I am getting my school stuff together to try and start this next semester. Fingers crossed.

things to do:

Community service! i suck.

wake up earlier. I can get more done if this happens.

Study for my menu tests. excited for this to be over!



sail away... far far away...

conti..

my day has not got much better.

It was slow at work so I got sent home :(

Better parts of it.

my stomach ache has finally left.

I made baked chicken with squash carrots and onions :)

it was yummy.

caught the biggest loser on tv. <3 wish i kept up with it.

and.

ONLY 10 DAYS TILL VEGAS!

Did I mention I'm going skydiving! YAY!

can it just be over.

today is not my day.

:)

Yesterday was wonderful.

I hung out with my sister and man friend all day.

Blake and I had a picnic at the capitol building and that was really fun. 

It was beautiful out, we played catch and just goofed around.

Yesterday was wonderful!

Today I am doing laundry and cleaning all sorts of things.

Bedroom.

Bathroom.

Car.

I also need to go get a haircut! ASAP!haha

I go to vegas soon!!! 

I can't wait.

I get to skydive.

Bask in the beautiful sunshine.

And I turn the hopefully wonderful 22.

Today is a good day.

neglectful blogger!

I have had a lot on my mind lately so I thought that maybe I should post something on my sad sad blog.

I have been working pretty much every day and that is nice but I decided to take off mondays now.

We are closed sundays and that gives me two official days off! 

Well with those two days I am going to start driving back to my home town and visit my AMAZING

father.  I can't describe to you how wonderful and influential this man has been in my life!

I have made horrible mistakes and he has always been there for me.

Never angry, maybe disappointed but he has always helped me through it all.

Now at 79, he needs a brake and a little help wether he likes it or not.

I want to spend what time i have left with him and help him if he needs with whatever it is he is doing at work or around the house and just take some of the everyday chores off his hands, dishes, cleaning, etc..

I love him. I'm the luckiest girl to be blessed with a father who raised two girls pretty much alone and at his age is still doing what he is doing.

<3 you daddy.

On another note. Relationships. Well I've had ups and I've had really horrible downs yet I am still in one.

I can say I date one of my best friends, someone who is totally okay with my weirdness.

I just hope that emotionally he can be there for me when I need him.

I don't ask for much, I just want him. All of him.

what a wonderful day...

Today has been wonderful for the most part.

I got to spend all of this last weekend at the lake, the only really bad part was the bf didn't come with.

He was a little upset with me because I didn't have service the whole time.

Its all fine now though and I can't wait to complete my night cuddled up in his arms! :)

I found out that my old roommate in Colorado is gonna be here for a week and a half!

CAN'T WAIT! I'm excited to see her and we are gonna hit up johnny holmes together!

I also went and handed in a bunch of applications today well 3 to be specific.

I start training tomorrow at the Bistro!

Interview tomorrow as well at Ruby Tuesday.

Another interview thursday at Applebees.

busy.busy.busy...

I got asked to shoot another wedding this next summer too! :)

It's all slowly but surely coming together!

Yay!!

Just gotta stop procrastinating the community service. oofta!

well I gotta do some more editing for the Petty/Jahner wedding but here is a sneak peak of a few!

HLandis Photography :)

I'm a boss

I get to shoot my first wedding!

for one of my very best friends!

Leeann I thank you for letting me capture every breath taking moment that will be happening tomorrow!

I'm oh so lucky!

I really can't express how EXCITED i am!!! AHHH!!!

on another note:

I'm going to miss my boyfriend!

Its weird saying that haha but its true!

but i will be cuddling in probably one hotel bed and three other girls haha 

swing choir tour all over again minus the underage drinking!!

I did do a quick shoot with my best friend christy the other day it was fun!

I got to do some crazy makeup on her and doll her up and make her sit in 100 degree heat. ha SORRY

she was awesome tho and I had fun! here is a sneak peak!

check out 

HL Photography on facebook to see the rest!

Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder.

well, well, well...

Time to catch up.

wow i use to be good about keeping up with this.

fail.

anyways...

I am done with seminar, I have started my community service, and for the real excitement!..

Two job interviews tomorrow!!!!! YAY!

I'm so close to getting everything back together.

I'm so broke and that is really the one thing that stresses me out the most and is holding me back.

however after tomorrow hopefully that won't be an issue.

My interviews are at the Toasted Frog, an upscale martini bar and then back go OG.

I am also now officially dating one of my best friends.

I'm scared and nervous to see what happens but he makes me happy. So happy.

and when i do get some money i am taking him out for an amazing dinner. I definitely owe him!<3

I had a great 4th of July weekend with him

I went to a family get together of his and it was a little over welming considering we just started to date officially but it was fun and I hope everyone liked me haha!

We also went to a concert and spent some time at the lake which is always wonderful!

then back to bizo to watch fireworks at the capital which  were great!

I miss CO but, getting my life together is what i needed to do.

surprisingly I am warming up to the fact that i'm back...

I still want to go visit at the end of the month, we'll see.

I shoot a wedding in about a week AWWWW nervous!

but excited..

well ill try and post sooner then later but you know how it goes

:)

One step forward!

Well I had my alcohol eval.

It went..

GREAT!

well as great as it could of gone. I got the minimum mandatory sentence i could get.

16hr dui seminar.

I had my first day of it yesterday and I now have 3 more days to go.

The instructor is funny so its not so bad. I also get to spend some time with my sister.

Now to just get my community service set up and over with and then I'll be a lot less stressed!

I found out that my friend has bed bugs.

google them.

:(

I now cannot wait to get home and wash/clean the crap outta all my stuff.

I'm terrified!

Each day I'm back home makes me miss colorado so much more!

Can it be July yet... thats when i wanna go visit! I hope I can!

Just gotta keep my head up. I'm here to do me, and thats what I plan to do!

Think of all the beauty still left around u and be happy...

Well hello again my very neglected blog!

Time to give you an update... I think so!

I am back in Nodak.

good or bad? well, I haven't decided yet. both!?

Good:

missed a few friends <3

softball!

family

a boy... yes i have one boy i am slowly falling for... ugh

Bad:

miss my foco friends :( alot!

no driving

no sandbar

falling for someone

dealing with my dui stuff

the big flood of bizo

All in all I really miss Colorado and really do want to move back someday. It had my heart <3

Fathers day is coming up and all I want is to go to mott spend all day with my dad!

Go fishing with him, make a delicious supper, maybe go out for a beer and then play gyn rummy.

Sounds pretty perfect to me! and i miss my daddy!

I am super nervous to take care of my dui stuff and I am going to do it tomorrow.. I've been sick pretty much this whole week and I'm finally feeling better plus the mother said I have to do it this week.

Lord please let this not be as bad as I think it will be!

Fingers Crossed!

On to the boy situation.. He is one of my best friends and I'm glad to finally see him again but now its turned into something more and we have always kinda been on and off but i really just wanted to kinda be like the movie no strings attached minus the falling in love part at the end of the movie.

Your probably wondering why and it a trust thing.

I know him better then most and he has cheated on pretty much every girlfriend he has dated. Maybe he has grown up a little bit or changed well ya maybe, or maybe not.

either way my heart doesn't want to be hurt again or lose one of my best friends either.

I guess we will see how it goes. He told his mom that we are "seeing each other" hmmm

I care about him a lot and we both get jealous from time to time.

I dont know what to think to be honest.

Can I be selfish and just want whats best for me?! i think so!

Thats what this move back is all about initially. ME.

To better myself and get my life together.

I just don't know if having to worry about someone else is what I need right now.

I'll keep you updated on that I suppose.

Well I have had enough of this now. 

its time to stumble.

much love! 



want want want... so cool

cute!

 for the dog i dont have right now but plan on someday :)

 for my love of sushi <3

 genius

catchin up!

<3

I have a wedding booked.

new born pics.

2 year pics.

Family pics.

All lined up for the next few months ahead!!

You have no idea how excited I am.

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I am also moving back to take care of some personal business that is long over due.

It is home, however not where I belong

CO has my <3

I will be back to the mountains as soon as I can.

I also will miss all the beautiful people I have met along the way in this great state.

Fitz, Kels, Elysa, Kristine, Angel, Kails, Rach

and many more.

I leave at the end of May so I have some time. 

NO tears are going to be shed yet so I'm living it up while I can!

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I really need a change I talked to a friend of a friend who does hair.

I'm thinking overall highlights and low lights of blonde.

85$

It is a good deal. Definitely considering it. We will see.

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Kels and I are on a mission to lose some weight and tone up.

We are starting tonight at my gym, she said I have to bust her ass.

I will, and I am glad to have a buddy so its gonna be fun.

I am also going to try some classes:

Hot yoga! zumba! maybe some kickboxing! 

All in All I love to workout.

Just need to do it more often.

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I recently went on a 3 mile hike with my roomies dog Jones.

It was awesome.

Beautiful view and stress free, it was nice to get away.

I decided it would be fun to run the way back down. Lets just say Jones and I passed out when we got back home. We were a little tired to say the least.

The end of the season is here. 

I don't think I will get to make it on the mountain one more time before it is officially over. :(

I did get to go a lot though so I'm not to heart broken. It was an awesome season.

I can't wait till next season!

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My friend chris roland is coming to see me this next week.

It is nice when your friends actually take the time to come 10 hrs to see you. 

means a lot!

Well that pretty much has caught you up with my life. I have today and tomorrow off of work.

Rent is due tomorrow :(

and life is what it is.

my new favorite quote that i've been thinking getting a tattoo of.

When words fail, music speaks.

:)

oscars!

I love Sandra Bullock

but Jake Gyllenhaal more!

<3

fun jewelery :) i want

My two VERY different styles I have 

<3