Think of all the beauty still left around u and be happy...

Well hello again my very neglected blog!

Time to give you an update... I think so!

I am back in Nodak.

good or bad? well, I haven't decided yet. both!?

Good:

missed a few friends <3

softball!

family

a boy... yes i have one boy i am slowly falling for... ugh

Bad:

miss my foco friends :( alot!

no driving

no sandbar

falling for someone

dealing with my dui stuff

the big flood of bizo

All in all I really miss Colorado and really do want to move back someday. It had my heart <3

Fathers day is coming up and all I want is to go to mott spend all day with my dad!

Go fishing with him, make a delicious supper, maybe go out for a beer and then play gyn rummy.

Sounds pretty perfect to me! and i miss my daddy!

I am super nervous to take care of my dui stuff and I am going to do it tomorrow.. I've been sick pretty much this whole week and I'm finally feeling better plus the mother said I have to do it this week.

Lord please let this not be as bad as I think it will be!

Fingers Crossed!

On to the boy situation.. He is one of my best friends and I'm glad to finally see him again but now its turned into something more and we have always kinda been on and off but i really just wanted to kinda be like the movie no strings attached minus the falling in love part at the end of the movie.

Your probably wondering why and it a trust thing.

I know him better then most and he has cheated on pretty much every girlfriend he has dated. Maybe he has grown up a little bit or changed well ya maybe, or maybe not.

either way my heart doesn't want to be hurt again or lose one of my best friends either.

I guess we will see how it goes. He told his mom that we are "seeing each other" hmmm

I care about him a lot and we both get jealous from time to time.

I dont know what to think to be honest.

Can I be selfish and just want whats best for me?! i think so!

Thats what this move back is all about initially. ME.

To better myself and get my life together.

I just don't know if having to worry about someone else is what I need right now.

I'll keep you updated on that I suppose.

Well I have had enough of this now. 

its time to stumble.

much love!