Forever in my Heart!

...I don't know where to begin...

I lost a friend early Saturday morning to suicide.

I talked to him about 2 to 3 hours before it happened.

He was so angry.

So upset.

He told me he didn't want to be alone.

I know that I can't blame myself.

but...

I should of went to his apartment, I could of talked to him, he trusted me.

I will never forgive myself for not attempting to do more.

I am so fucking pissed at him.

He was so angry but how the hell do you think his friends and family feel now.

I cared a lot for him and I know he knows this!

I listened.

I CARED!

YOU MATTERED TO ME!

I'm so sorry!

I know you felt alone, but you weren't! There are so many people that love you.

I hate that you did this!

You are so much better then this, you are such a great person.

I loved you as a friend, you were great.

We have so many great memories!

I'll never forget coloring those pictures or jamming to some music that ur crazy landlord would get pissed at us for later.

we can't forget the parties cuz it wasn't a party without us!

I'll never forget the first night we hung out and I completely peer pressured you into drinking way more then you should of, so I will take the blame! Then of course all that drinking took its toll and I rubbed your back and grabbed you water as you endlessly puked all over my bathroom and then later by my couch.

I know I gave you shit for that but I've done the EXACT same thing times ten so I really didn't care.. I mean come on one of my besties elliot crapped on my floor..

I won't forget intramural football with all you guys.

That week you were sick and it was freezing out we cuddled up in your jacket cuz we all know I am the worst winter person ever and I never come prepared those conditions.

You were great to me.

Tiff always told me she was gonna hook me up with you haha..

We talked about that I haven't talked to her in so long I almost forgot.

I could always count on you to be up with me at we hours of the morning to talk to.

Why?!

You mean so much.

You are so loved and I wish you only knew how much of an impact you really did make on everyone!

on me!

I will NEVER forget you.

I am blessed to have gotten a chance to have you in my life.

I WILL see you again.

R.I.P Scott

My thoughts and prayers go out to the Remington Family and Friends.